Nov 10, 2006
just got home from a day out and realized that i forgot how to live. i did things that i haven't done in a very long time. i saw people during the day again, more people than i ever had seen during the night. although a couple of them were rude to not apologize when they bump into you, some were nice enough to smile, to thank you, to laugh when you coincendentially get into a stupid situation with. i rode public transportations, noticed how people still scramble for a seat on the train, not minding if they hurt others who were in their way. but i saw a few sensible people who at least offer their seat to the elderly and to pregnant women. i walked and crossed more streets today than i usually do in a span of a week. i noticed also how drivers never minded the pedestrians anymore, when they swerve or at least not stop when they get to an intersection, drivers who never proceed with caution. drivers who don't actually know how to drive. but i was grateful enough to have riden a taxi who's driver was very nice and deeply wise. i even met an old friend today. but nothing ever changes i guess. she was cramming for a report for tomorrow and she needed my help. made me realize how grateful i am to be out of school but made me desperately miss it.
gawd! the simple things that i miss.... perks of life that you don't get when you have graveyard shift for work. most people would take it for granted. a selected few would take it as a reminder to make their lives better. i'd rather be the latter. but i'm just a person. i have emotions and moods that make me irrational. and sometimes i also take it for granted. but i don't want to regret doing things that i wish i haven't done. so i at least try to remember that they're blessings to brighten my day. too bad i'm back to reality.
