me, the messy

stop.
i need some time for myself.

i'm tired.
i keep on forgetting things.
i'm stubborn most of the time.
i constantly get into an arguement.
i get irritated too quickly.
i'm begining to be selfish.
i feel like the world is closing down on me.
it's getting too smaller and too difficult to breathe.
i need sometime to get my focus back.
you know, do all these things and
still maintain my old self.

i miss that.

My day begins at night actually. Pretty weird huh?

I'm at work for about 9 hours. There really is no problem with the time to get to work.
It would only take me a few minutes. Preparing for work takes a bit of time. Let's say
an hour maximum. That already eats up 10 hours of my day. I go back home to get
my stuff and refresh for school. I go to school then. That would take me about an hour
and a half. Each of my classes lasts for 3 hours sometimes more. And i spend another
hour to get home. At the maximum I've used up 16 hours of my day already. But it
doesn't stop there. Once i get home, i have some chores to do, make assignments,
prepare my things for the next day and prepare for bed. If i can squeeze in a few minutes
of watching TV or browsing the net/ checking emails I will. And if there's some important
errand to run then sprint! Cause that would all be done in 3 hours, maximum. More than
that then.... well, I still can still manage. I'm only like this for four days in a week. Going
back, I've already eaten up 19 hours by then. And sleeping would be no problem. I just imagine
someone cuddled next to me in my bed for about 5 minutes and sure enough I'll be
sleeping like a baby.

I used to hate time. It limits us from enjoying and wasting it away in pleasure. But one can't
really prevent it, time does limit us. The good thing that it does is that it would make you
treasure every happy, enjoyable, sweet, lovely and all the other moments. Because you
won't have enough time to have that again.