Feb 19, 2009
for i am awake!
let's sing shall we? sing with me!
Stand By Me - Ben E. King
and darling darling stahahand! by me! stand by me! ahaha!
i feel good today.
before i forget... here we go for lio loco!
1. i like to sing! i would sing any song i can think of after hearing a phrase that sort of resembles a song.
2. i'd like to have a pair of chucks someday. purple ones too! hi cut please!
3. i'm corny. but i think you know that already. ahahaha!
4. you might have noticed, i don't type any letter in caps. ^_^ i like things simple see but i like playing with words too.
5. i don't laugh out loud much. cause she just smiles or laughs silently and that's no fun. but boy does it feel great to laugh out loud! i did that today and whew! it felt nice! very very nice! a really throaty laugh like coming from the diaphragm.
6. i play the piano, did i tell you that? no i didn't but now you know! but i think you already know.
7. i love to draw too! and paint and explore and experiment on other art materials! i wish i had a studio. *sigh* but i think you already know that too. but it doesn't change that fact! :p
8. i'm afraid to go to quiapo. there's another place that we don't like going to. but i can't remember. she'll remember when she wakes.
9. i am very sensitive. tee hee. i try to keep an open mind but my feelings get hurt pretty easily. she's strong though so she doesn't mind. but i do. i don't like getting hurt. it makes me sleep.
10. i am a saver! i save money. she wastes all our money. but while i'm awake, i will save! won't let her touch it. i promise! have to hide it somewhere. tee hee. not in a bank. she'll get hold of my card... hmm.... funny. i don't like money. no, i know! i hate wasting money. that's more right. ahaha. righter? hehe.
2 more to go! lio loco should be happy! i'm about to finish!
11. i like to window shop..... online!!! let's go to bluefly shall we... or maybe freepeople. freepeople got good clothes. very comfy looking. i like out of this world clothes! tribal looking... mocassins and head bands and tunics... and loose clothes... ooh nice skirts too!
12. oh yeah.... i like flash things! like the drum machine on albino black sheep. doesn't fail to amaze me everytime.
there.... am finished chief! :p
i think i better go back to sleep. hope to wake up tomorrow. hahaha!
Feb 9, 2009
Skip the easel and the turpentine! I can purchase those in the overpriced bookstore instead! What the heck I have all the means to do so anyway. But I need that damned brush tub! Ugh!
Instead of going to artist's haven (no thanks to my phobia of the location), I went to that big store near UST. *Sigh* It was packed with students. I couldn't even ask for a decent answer from one of the sales ladies, so much for inquiries. Good thing about it was that the drafting tables were about 400 bucks cheaper. Albeit the ones from Quiapo are even cheaper. i am certain of that. i think. yeah.
Useless trip. i'm chicken shit anyway. Will probably ask my beloved Mother to come with me on the coming weekend.
brush tub! brush tub! brush tub!!!
uh.... a palette too please. no wood ones. a large one at that.
I hate changing palettes. Yeah, might as well get a large one. Wood ones would work best over time I guess. It just wastes the paint if it's a new wooden palette. It's environment-friendly as well. Plastic ones with little compartments might work. Cheaper, but it's better for water color instead of acrylics and oils. And its difficult to use with the knives. Damn brush tub.
blabbering.... la la la la la.... too many voices......
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better decide fast.
Damn it to hell!
I'm fine!
And so it echoes.
i'm fine....
But not for long.
I can feel it.
Must complete the list soon.
must go and be gone.
But not for a lengthy while.
drown myself when its time.
Noticed the tapping?
Noticed the fidgets
notice the silence
notice the trembling.
It's the transition.
failed strength.
no control.
almost rocking....
almost rocking...
Give me a little bit more.
The right moment will come.
switch soon
i'm overlapping you.
I still grasp us.
Smile. Sanely please.
we'll need to run soon.
Not quite yet.
A full list
The right time
i'll savor my freedom.
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I have to file for leaves. Soon.
Wish Fahrenheit was here. He knows how to handle this.
He knows.
