me, the messy

if stars can be wished upon,
then count all the numerous stars you see at night
and that's how many times
i've wished i can let go and move on.
i have only distracted myself
with more than a dozen people to help me do so.
no matter how much they see me smile
and laugh and act normally everyday,
underneath it all, i'm still broken.
no matter how hard i try to be happy
i would still feel sad when left alone.
add this to my wishes:
for someone to pick me up
and put my pieces back together.

*sigh*.... *emo*