Mar 25, 2007
funny, how my blog restricts me from saying the things that i want.
funny, how i still made a blog despite still keeping most of my secrets.
ironic isn't it? my life seems to be full of irony.
i never thought life would be so difficult or that complicated.
i've always accepted everything as it comes along.
that makes choices so much simpler. but then when
simple things pile up, it would be too much to handle
with just two hands.
i'm just a small girl really, with a mind of an idealist.
with a strong spirit that easily breaks if you know
where to strike.
*****
i worry too much about everything. makes me wonder why i
have black hair instead of white. i care too much of most things.
people wonder why i do, instead of minding my own business.
i don't really know. it doesn't feel too good if i don't care.
some people would think, if i have ever cared for myself.
yes, of course i have. i'm rather selfish if you knew what
my intentions were.
*****
i guess i can't understand it anymore. for once i don't actually
know what to do with a situation like this. i usually can handle
anything that comes my way. but not this one, oh no. this
would be, i guess, a real challenge for me. one that i won't
manage to work out.
