me, the messy

It's been a long while isn't it? There are so many things that I'd like to
back track myself into. Work, studies.... And I'd like to recall when I last
had fun with my life. I can't seem to remember anymore but I'm sure
it wasn't life as it is now.

When I was still following the norm that dictates how life should be in this
community about a few years ago, i used to get comments from the people
i looked up to, saying that i should enjoy life while i'm still not in their
world. But being in the status of where i was, on the brink of finally getting
out of almost a decade of studying college, i was all too excited and all too
fascinated with getting in to the corporate world. But i think i got into it too
soon. Because working was like starting another race before even reaching
the finish line of the current one. I juggled work and studies at the same
time. I'm still amazed that I got to the very end of the very last lap of the
very long race of college.

It's probably insane to say it, but it was fun. Working and studying was like
a fast track. The speed was addictive. So when i was finally done with
studying, working was a rather boring life and I've grown to hate my job.
Who wouldn't? It was stressful and tiring and it was always the same every
single damned day! The same calls, the same complaints, the same effing
irate and frustrated customers bellowing their lungs out so that they can
just feel good over something that wasn't even my fault! Hell! If they
wanted so much to do such a thing then they should have just called their
f*cking shrinks! I worked for the company to help them with the Internet
connection and not to listen to their insanity! Sheesh!

Well clearly I'm not over with that experience. Let me just take a
breather here and get back to you later....